Tired of being scared

interposer · 31-07-2012, 09:57 PM

Hello, new here and all...

It's been tough for me to write this up... Frankly, I'm not sure I want to remember what I've seen both awake and asleep, and the whole "stick your head in the sand" routine is tempting. But what's happened has happened, so it's best not to forget. I'm just not sure I can deal with this alone, and I don't want to distress family and friends anymore than I already have.

Basically, January of 2011, sometime around midnight, I saw the silhouette of an approximately four foot tall humanoid outside the glass door of my computer room. I noticed it after feeling very ill, as though every cell of my being were sick. And since then, I get these nightmares that leave me breathless upon waking and distressed for days following.
A friend told me it was some sort of spirit that just wanted to talk. But his description didn't really match that well, so I don't know.

I've always been able to wake from nightmares, pretty much at will. Most of my dreams are lucid. But these new ones... I've been forced to either wait until the conclusion, or until something external wakes me.

If it helps, I am telepathic. Never really developed it much though, never was a priority. Just can hear and project the odd thing.
I can provide details of the nightmares if need be. I recorded most of them as soon as I woke.

I just want to know if what I saw is really responsible, and if there's anything I can do about it. I can't keep going through this, the waking world is stressful enough as it is.

Thank you for your time.

Interposer

ufochick · 01-08-2012, 03:29 AM

I would get a blacklight, the type teenagers use over posters. Check yourself each morning for bright markings and new scars/red marks that will only show up with the light.

keep a journal, look for proof of such visits, see if they occur at certain times, places, days.

My blog has some lists of different signs of benevolent/malevolent ETs/IDs. Have you asked that it stop? Have you been harmed physically?

If you are just being scared then decide not to be frightened any more. Many of the negatives feed off of fear.

interposer · 07-08-2012, 06:33 AM

Hi, thanks for replying, and sorry for taking so long to get back. Lots of stuff happening right now.

I've got a couple keychain UV lights. Been thinking of modding one for greater output. In case I just kill the led though, I have been looking into getting a larger light. I haven't found any marks yet, but they are small lights. I could be missing a lot.

I've been trying to document everything that relates to this, from the dreams to anytime I feel ill like that first time, to anytime I get an unexplained headache or just feel threatened for no apparent reason. In fact, right now I am experiencing two of those symptoms -> headache plus feeling ill.
Usually any combination of these results in a nightmare, if I fall asleep within a certain period. This period being between 11pm and 3am usually, which is when I usually experience any of the symptoms.
I've got an early day tomorrow, so I'm betting I'll probably have a nightmare tonight.

I have tried asking... not that I'm sure I'm asking it specifically (or correctly?), whatever it is. Doesn't really seem to help though, unless it just gets tired of waiting for me to fall asleep.
I've found that loud music, like rock or metal helps. Can't really fall asleep to that though, so it's a flawed solution that only works with a nocturnal cycle.
As far as I can tell, I haven't been physically harmed. I get bruises and cuts that I can't explain, but most of that can probably be related to everyday routine.

I have tried to block out my emotions when I feel like it's back. Mixed results with that. I'm a decent actor, I can hide my emotions, but that's it. Never really learned to actually control them, so it's been tough, trying not being scared.

Again, thank you for replying. It means a lot.

31-07-2012, 09:57 PM	#1
interposer Registered User Join Date: Jul 2012 Posts: 2	Tired of being scared Hello, new here and all... It's been tough for me to write this up... Frankly, I'm not sure I want to remember what I've seen both awake and asleep, and the whole "stick your head in the sand" routine is tempting. But what's happened has happened, so it's best not to forget. I'm just not sure I can deal with this alone, and I don't want to distress family and friends anymore than I already have. Basically, January of 2011, sometime around midnight, I saw the silhouette of an approximately four foot tall humanoid outside the glass door of my computer room. I noticed it after feeling very ill, as though every cell of my being were sick. And since then, I get these nightmares that leave me breathless upon waking and distressed for days following. A friend told me it was some sort of spirit that just wanted to talk. But his description didn't really match that well, so I don't know. I've always been able to wake from nightmares, pretty much at will. Most of my dreams are lucid. But these new ones... I've been forced to either wait until the conclusion, or until something external wakes me. If it helps, I am telepathic. Never really developed it much though, never was a priority. Just can hear and project the odd thing. I can provide details of the nightmares if need be. I recorded most of them as soon as I woke. I just want to know if what I saw is really responsible, and if there's anything I can do about it. I can't keep going through this, the waking world is stressful enough as it is. Thank you for your time. Interposer

01-08-2012, 03:29 AM	#2
ufochick Moderator Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Tulsa Oklahoma metro area, USA Posts: 7,279	I would get a blacklight, the type teenagers use over posters. Check yourself each morning for bright markings and new scars/red marks that will only show up with the light. keep a journal, look for proof of such visits, see if they occur at certain times, places, days. My blog has some lists of different signs of benevolent/malevolent ETs/IDs. Have you asked that it stop? Have you been harmed physically? If you are just being scared then decide not to be frightened any more. Many of the negatives feed off of fear. __________________ The Reptilian Agenda, Interdimensional Contact, Interactions signs,Alien Technology and More UFOchick.com

07-08-2012, 06:33 AM	#3
interposer Registered User Join Date: Jul 2012 Posts: 2	Hi, thanks for replying, and sorry for taking so long to get back. Lots of stuff happening right now. I've got a couple keychain UV lights. Been thinking of modding one for greater output. In case I just kill the led though, I have been looking into getting a larger light. I haven't found any marks yet, but they are small lights. I could be missing a lot. I've been trying to document everything that relates to this, from the dreams to anytime I feel ill like that first time, to anytime I get an unexplained headache or just feel threatened for no apparent reason. In fact, right now I am experiencing two of those symptoms -> headache plus feeling ill. Usually any combination of these results in a nightmare, if I fall asleep within a certain period. This period being between 11pm and 3am usually, which is when I usually experience any of the symptoms. I've got an early day tomorrow, so I'm betting I'll probably have a nightmare tonight. I have tried asking... not that I'm sure I'm asking it specifically (or correctly?), whatever it is. Doesn't really seem to help though, unless it just gets tired of waiting for me to fall asleep. I've found that loud music, like rock or metal helps. Can't really fall asleep to that though, so it's a flawed solution that only works with a nocturnal cycle. As far as I can tell, I haven't been physically harmed. I get bruises and cuts that I can't explain, but most of that can probably be related to everyday routine. I have tried to block out my emotions when I feel like it's back. Mixed results with that. I'm a decent actor, I can hide my emotions, but that's it. Never really learned to actually control them, so it's been tough, trying not being scared. Again, thank you for replying. It means a lot.