Depersonalization/Derealization

midnight12 · 27-06-2012, 03:02 PM

Hi guys,

New here but definately not new to spiritual forums.

Around a year and a half ago I was practicing meditation frequently and stumbled upon self-inquiry as a meditative practice. I began pursuing it relentlessly and found myself within several weeks realizing the emptiness of the self, or something like that.

To tell the truth I'm not really sure what the fuck happened but I know that ever since that night I've been experiencing strong depersonalization and derealization. I went through what I could only think to be a 'dark night of the soul' where I was in complete hell. I barely slept and felt as if I was in a state of shock. It has been the most distressing time in my life and I don't know what to do because I'm still experiencing these things. People are expecting me to get a job, act normal, but I'm walking around in a totally different state of consciousness to everyone and cannot feel emotions. I feel like a robot.

I've tried PM'ing people on here already because someone posted about this before but this forum is one of those fucking irritating ones where you have to wait for 48 hrs or whatever before you can see profiles / PM people.... *sigh*.

Please help me.

tdm88 · 27-07-2012, 05:21 AM

'Dark night of the Soul' is a term used when the ego is dying. What may happen is,what you once considered to be important in life no longer has any value. You are disidentifying with the world out there and beginning to identify with the world within. What you perceived to be real now reveals to be an illusion,this can cause great amount of pain and suffering as we have all been so programmed by this world and realize it's not who we are. I can assure you you are not the robot but someone who is higher up on the mountain and can see greater distance than those around you. One of the hardest things is to be an awakened being in a sleeping world,the path of truth is not for the faint hearted.

jconnar · 27-07-2012, 06:40 AM

surrender midnight12

Anything that comes along that is unpleasant, surrender to it.

Anything that comes along that is pleasant, surrender to it.

What is aware of thoughts?

What is aware of that mental voice inside the mind that won't stop?

27-06-2012, 03:02 PM	#1
midnight12 Registered User Join Date: Jun 2012 Posts: 2	Depersonalization/Derealization Hi guys, New here but definately not new to spiritual forums. Around a year and a half ago I was practicing meditation frequently and stumbled upon self-inquiry as a meditative practice. I began pursuing it relentlessly and found myself within several weeks realizing the emptiness of the self, or something like that. To tell the truth I'm not really sure what the fuck happened but I know that ever since that night I've been experiencing strong depersonalization and derealization. I went through what I could only think to be a 'dark night of the soul' where I was in complete hell. I barely slept and felt as if I was in a state of shock. It has been the most distressing time in my life and I don't know what to do because I'm still experiencing these things. People are expecting me to get a job, act normal, but I'm walking around in a totally different state of consciousness to everyone and cannot feel emotions. I feel like a robot. I've tried PM'ing people on here already because someone posted about this before but this forum is one of those fucking irritating ones where you have to wait for 48 hrs or whatever before you can see profiles / PM people.... sigh. Please help me. Last edited by midnight12; 27-06-2012 at 03:06 PM.

27-07-2012, 05:21 AM	#2
tdm88 Junior Member Join Date: Jun 2011 Posts: 21	'Dark night of the Soul' is a term used when the ego is dying. What may happen is,what you once considered to be important in life no longer has any value. You are disidentifying with the world out there and beginning to identify with the world within. What you perceived to be real now reveals to be an illusion,this can cause great amount of pain and suffering as we have all been so programmed by this world and realize it's not who we are. I can assure you you are not the robot but someone who is higher up on the mountain and can see greater distance than those around you. One of the hardest things is to be an awakened being in a sleeping world,the path of truth is not for the faint hearted.

27-07-2012, 06:40 AM	#3
jconnar Senior Member Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: The Asylum Posts: 3,646	surrender midnight12 Anything that comes along that is unpleasant, surrender to it. Anything that comes along that is pleasant, surrender to it. What is aware of thoughts? What is aware of that mental voice inside the mind that won't stop?