I have sensed death

[aee02]

Another thread gave me the courage to post this.. I have been having weird experiences and I cannot find similar experiences online or on this forum. I have never told anyone because it scares me and I don't want people to think I've lost my mind.

I am not a psychic. I am a boring person. I am as average as they come..
That being said...

It began the end of the summer in 2006. My partner and I attended an outdoor concert. During the concert (I was not drinking or smoking anything), I had this weird sensation. It was like tasting mint with chocolate on the inside and it felt like it slid through my entire body. Later that night we found out my partner's father had an accident. At the hospital I had that same sensation an hour before we found out he would not survive the accident. He told me the day before he died he saw a bright light and that the men would get him tomorrow. The next day at the end I was rubbing his feet and telling him it was ok to go when I felt this energy leave his feet and move up through his body. Then it felt like this tether of energy that went through the wall. I couldn't see it with the eyes so to speak but I could sense it. It was like what I heard called the thin space between two worlds. It felt like, well, home. I was so envious he was going home. I remember thinking that.

Afterwards I felt like this sticky feeling on me like walking through a spider web. I began to sense smells in various places. The craziest was when I went to the bar for a beer. There were people dancing and I could feel their energies bouncing off the walls. And there was this one guy that physically made me sick. You know how you get the funny tummy sensations when something is amiss this was more than that. It felt like rotten meat. I left the bar immediately.

The intensity began to diminish after a few days. Something stayed. I briefly did some chaplain work and I have volunteered in some retirement homes. Four times I have had the sensation that I have come to call "death" sensation. I only know for certain of one other death that happened after I had this experience so that is two.

I feel like a freak. What is wrong me? Sensing death? How morbid is that? I got to where when I enter these kind of places where more people do pass that I mentally try and shut out any sensations. I know it is not possible but I feel guilty like I had something to do with their passing which I know is not possible. I don't want to know they are dying.

Another worry is the energy high I got after my partner's father passed. I can hike and get some natural energy from plants etc. but this was an energy high that was like a 100 times more. I have heard of people who get addicted to sucking out energies and I don't want to be that kind of person. How sick would that be to rob energy from someone dying or dead. Ick!

I really don't know anything about psychic energy and the like so I figured I must have stumbled across this by accident. I tried to wait and see if anyone posted anything similar because I don't want to sound like I'm on some kind of ego trip or needy or anything.. This has me totally freaked out and I can't tell anyone. If anyone has any advice or places on the net or books to check out please, please let me know. Most of all even though you don't know me from Adam I appreciate you all allowing me the space to share this... Thank you.

PS-I live in the mountains and we are under a high wind warning so my internet service may go off and I may not be able to respond for a day or so.. I look forward to any imput. Thanks. Sincerely.

[aee02]

Yikes! Guess I did freak people out. I'm out... thanks

[stinky catz]

I don't think your stealing energy, maybe your just hyper-sensitive to these things. You might want to create a mental barrier around your body. A shield if you will. Perhaps go see a psychic and ask them to clear you of any unwanted energy. They would be more than welcome to help you. Nothings wrong with you. :o

[liquidlight]

Ah, you sound very sweet and I would not mind fark the situation, sometimes divine energy descends on us and it is natural. You are becoming aware thats all.

Remember to ground yourself and pray or meditate at this time as it is an opportunity for you to go 'inside'. Most important that when we are given insight that we do just that trust our own inner spiritual awareness.

This is a special time and the gift will either be like the tides, an ebb and flow or become a permanant fixture in which case you will learn to adapt.

Drink plenty of water, live clean and stay bright from the heart.

[soul_traveller]

I'm not an expert in these things. However, perhaps surround yourself with the colour brown. This is a grounding colour and will help to bring back your mental energy to the earth and also it will prevent premature Kundilini activations taking place. If anything disturbs you surround yourself and flush your body in brown first.

Perhaps also as a protection technique surround yourself and flush your body in violet.

You are blessed to feel such energy and while challenging learn how to use it. Sensing death can be a useful as then you could perceive possible outcomes and choose alternative paths.

As for witnessing another person's death? Do you tell then or not? What do you do? Its real challenge. In a radio interview the American Author and researcher Stewart Swerdlow said once that he was walking along Los Angelos when be brushed (touching) the shoulder of a passer by in the street. Because of his abilities, he then had a vision of this man being murdered in a knife attack. He said all he could do was send a request to oversoul of that person and ask for protection to be given to that soul-personality.

Hope that helps in some way. Many here I'm sure and myself included would admire you for naturally having such creative gifts even if challenging. Learn to use then for the greatness of yourself and others. :)

[aee02]

Thank you everyone for your kind and thoughtful responses. I chickened out for a few days in checking out this post because I was like "what have I done..." but thank you letting me share and most of all thank you for taking the time to respond. I wrote down some notes. Thanks again.:)

[stinky catz]

Your quite welcome. Good luck to you. :)

[academylin]

http://www.davidicke.com/forum/showthread.php?t=46847
Interesting thread, probably relates to what you are experiencing.. Follow the Empath link. ( particularly their traits, you scream Empath !! )
I too have felt/ sensed another persons death, and experienced my own !
I like you, tell me about your ministry !?
Lin x:)

[aee02]

Amy http://www.davidicke.com/forum/showthread.php?t=46847
Interesting thread, probably relates to what you are experiencing.. Follow the Empath link. ( particularly their traits, you scream Empath !! )
I too have felt/ sensed another persons death, and experienced my own !
I like you, tell me about your ministry !?
Lin x:)

Hi Academylin,
Thanks for the thread link. I'm going to check that out next. I appreciate you taking the time to send it to me.

Ministry-where to start. I'll try and keep it short. I grew up in the Christian tradition. Just about every male in our family was a Preacher. When I was a kid I was swept into the charismatic movement of the 70's. To be honest it kind of freaked me out-a little out there even for me. However, I did see some weird stuff. I saw my first exorcism when I was 7. I also witnessed healing services where people were actually healed physically and I'm not talking the Benny Hinn stuff either-it was real. Again, I was a kid so I'm sure that had some influence on reality. Those experiences however did make me open to other possibilities which I can appreciate today.

I was really into serving in the Church when I was younger. I participated in a lot of missionary ministry and thought that was what I wanted to do with my life when it took a 180. At 15 I realized I was Gay. In my Church that was a no-no. So...

Through years of hearing from family and friends that I was going to hell I decided to go to Seminary and find out for myself. I ended up with more questions than answers but realized on the way that my sexuality was a fear scam that was being used by the Church to keep its church goers occupied and ready to soldier off to vote for their man when it was time.

I attended Columbia Theological Seminary which is considered a liberal school. Like David Icke eloquently put it since I was part of the lower echlons of ministry I did not have the big picture and of course was not privy to information. I can tell you that we didn't learn of any special mystical education. As a matter of fact the bent was towards making heaven on Earth with no spirituality attached except to help out others. That doesn't sound bad until it takes a nasty turn toward Socialism. Socialism in itself doesn't sound bad until you realize it doesn't exist.

After Seminary I worked in a Homeless ministry for 2 years. The actual work was rewarding with helping folks out with food and shelter. I met some wonderful friends. I also was in the Church band. I played drums and they let me funk or metal it out when I wanted which was fun. I even had a street name, "Sticks". Sorry, I got off subject. I do miss that part of the ministry a lot. :D

The leaders of the ministry also attended the same Seminary. Their main theme was that the system was broken and so were all of us. There are some truths to that of course but that vicitmization was perpetuated constantly was alarming to me. There was no talk of accountability or responsibility for that matter so our jobs were to balk at the system but do nothing to make that change.

I also did some Prison Ministry in the sense that I sat with some of our Homeless friends during their court dates. I expected a "Law and Order" scenario but what I saw was over and over repeat parole violations stemming from addictions. I never ever want to see another human being chained up again. The fear in their eyes and the bewilderment as to how they got to this place in their lives broke my heart over and over again.

The system is broken. It is. We live in different systems. Those who are middle-class live in the system where they are taught to "pull ourselves up from their bootstraps" and survival of the fittest. Those of whom I ministered were part of a different system where they are taught they could do no better and they would be dependent on the government and deserving of so or would be good as their next con because that was their means of survival. To me, this was the perfect example of the compartmentalization that David Icke spoke of and it is brilliantly evil with the Church doing its job of keeping it polarized from each other. According to the ministry I served the only answer was Socialism-which again wouldn't be bad if it actually existed but we know it is facade for those who want to control.

That ministry folded this year with a scandal that rivaled a Jerry Springer show. It worked out because I had become so disillusioned with it and with organized religion as a whole. I'm just sorry that so many people were hurt along the way.

A few friends I knew in the ministry was able to help me find a place serving in the retirement community. The older folks have a tender spot in my heart. I remember visiting my Grandmother at a retirement home a few years back at Christmas. There were other folks there that were dressed up and excited about a visit that for them would never happen. They were dumped there to die. It hurt me to the core and I was compelled to spend time with them. Everyone needs to be heard and certainly everyone needs to be loved. I visited retirement homes and hospitals for a few months this past year. It was so rewarding and I really feel it is my calling so to speak. I so enjoy spending time with the older generations and listening to their stories. They truly lived in a different time. Many times I was also present at the end of their lives. It felt like such an honor to be there. Every time it was different for each person. Sometimes I felt nothing, sometimes I felt their spirit leaving, and sometimes I felt they lingered. The selfish part of me was envious. I know that they are entering a new realm of their existance and it is so exciting. It is exciting to know they are no longer held down to a body that has betrayed them and/or intense lonliness and despair.

I'm not sure what my "ministry" is anymore. My life has really changed. I was fired from a 19 year banking career and I've found out the Church I served was a sham. The world has not changed-I have. In Seminary they called this state, "shipwrecked". It is the place where you move from where you always believed to a new state of belief. Thankfully it is temporary. There are reasons for everything. There have been "coincidences" that have brought me to this point in my life and from that perspective I'm just on a different part of a cohesive path. I have had these disappointments for a reason and it has led to where I am now. I think I am now at the point where I need to re-learn what is reality and not only my place in it-but our place in it-all together.

This turned out to be a lot longer reply than intended and I'm sorry if I have not answered your question. I so appreciate you taking the time to read this and moreover to ask in the first place. So many of us don't have the time. Reading over this makes me feel like I've glossed over part of myself. I'm no angel-you've only read the better parts-on a good day. I'm just stumbling through like everyone else. Thanks for taking the time to listen.

I look forward to hearing about your experiences. Experience and sharing stories are the best teachers in life. Feel free please to share a colossal email if you would like... Thanks again for taking the time to listen to a stranger.

Sincerely,
Amy

[stinky catz]

Wow sounds like an experience :p I'm sorry to hear what happened to you. It only gets better from now on.

My family used to be a devout Catholics, but then my parents got divorced. When they got divorced they were told, by the church, they had to pay the church money for getting divorced (wtf?). After that my father left the catholic church went from church to church trying to find something that worked for him and me. We couldn't find anything. Every church seemed to just be a sham, as you said. People at all of these churches were so caught up in selfishness and bullshit that they didn't even grow spiritually. At this church we stayed at for a year, would just talk about his own family the whole time, sing some hymns and that was a service on Sunday. We looked for a couple of years. After that my dad read some books, we found David Icke and we both realized that there are better ways to find spirituality then going to church every Sunday. It was hard not going to church because for so many years we thought that was the only way to be spiritual and go to heaven.

I don't know if that helped you at all, but I just wanted to tell you an example that even though things are tough, it will get better. Just keep a positive attitude and you'll be fine. :)

[queenmaeve]

Another thread gave me the courage to post this.. I have been having weird experiences and I cannot find similar experiences online or on this forum. I have never told anyone because it scares me and I don't want people to think I've lost my mind.

I am not a psychic. I am a boring person. I am as average as they come..
That being said...

It began the end of the summer in 2006. My partner and I attended an outdoor concert. During the concert (I was not drinking or smoking anything), I had this weird sensation. It was like tasting mint with chocolate on the inside and it felt like it slid through my entire body. Later that night we found out my partner's father had an accident. At the hospital I had that same sensation an hour before we found out he would not survive the accident. He told me the day before he died he saw a bright light and that the men would get him tomorrow. The next day at the end I was rubbing his feet and telling him it was ok to go when I felt this energy leave his feet and move up through his body. Then it felt like this tether of energy that went through the wall. I couldn't see it with the eyes so to speak but I could sense it. It was like what I heard called the thin space between two worlds. It felt like, well, home. I was so envious he was going home. I remember thinking that.

Afterwards I felt like this sticky feeling on me like walking through a spider web. I began to sense smells in various places. The craziest was when I went to the bar for a beer. There were people dancing and I could feel their energies bouncing off the walls. And there was this one guy that physically made me sick. You know how you get the funny tummy sensations when something is amiss this was more than that. It felt like rotten meat. I left the bar immediately.

The intensity began to diminish after a few days. Something stayed. I briefly did some chaplain work and I have volunteered in some retirement homes. Four times I have had the sensation that I have come to call "death" sensation. I only know for certain of one other death that happened after I had this experience so that is two.

I feel like a freak. What is wrong me? Sensing death? How morbid is that? I got to where when I enter these kind of places where more people do pass that I mentally try and shut out any sensations. I know it is not possible but I feel guilty like I had something to do with their passing which I know is not possible. I don't want to know they are dying.

Another worry is the energy high I got after my partner's father passed. I can hike and get some natural energy from plants etc. but this was an energy high that was like a 100 times more. I have heard of people who get addicted to sucking out energies and I don't want to be that kind of person. How sick would that be to rob energy from someone dying or dead. Ick!

I really don't know anything about psychic energy and the like so I figured I must have stumbled across this by accident. I tried to wait and see if anyone posted anything similar because I don't want to sound like I'm on some kind of ego trip or needy or anything.. This has me totally freaked out and I can't tell anyone. If anyone has any advice or places on the net or books to check out please, please let me know. Most of all even though you don't know me from Adam I appreciate you all allowing me the space to share this... Thank you.

PS-I live in the mountains and we are under a high wind warning so my internet service may go off and I may not be able to respond for a day or so.. I look forward to any imput. Thanks. Sincerely.I can relate and actually wanted to post my experience. I had a bit of a different experience about sensing death. It's happened three times to me. I noticed a sort of golden glow around people who are dying. The last time I saw it was last january with my father. It freaked me out...He had a short illness and passed away on feb 20, 2008. It was not expected. I told my stepmother he was dying and she didn't believe me. The first time I saw the death glow was 11 years ago just before my boss passed away and the other time was an electrician that was doing some work at my house and I saw his obituary about 6 weeks later.
The other point that you made about feeling energy when someone passes away I can totally relate with. When my father passed away last february, I was there with him, rubbing his feet. I felt like I needed to for some reason. When he died I held his hand and after a few minutes I walked to the other side of his bed and stood by him. I felt a cool sort of ethereal breeze and a subtle tap on my right shoulder. I told my sister, who was standing right next to me, of the experience later and she felt the cool breeze as well. I looked it up on the internet and every religion talks about it. Either it's chi, the holy spirit, energy, the soul, etc. Even the navajo indians talk about the cool breeze at death. Another site talked about energy leaving your crown chakra at death. You're not sucking energy from them. It's a very holy experience to go through watching someone die. I think it opens up your own energy centers when you are feeling grief and other emotions. Hope this helps.

[academylin]

AeeO2 and queen maeve,
after reading both posts and realising the similarities which are obvious, I recollected a book I was drawn to last year whilst living through a similar experience.
It was peculiar to even stumble upon this book where I found it and only made sense once I'd read it.
It is entitled " What If God Were The Sun ? " a novel by a psychic medium called John Edward.
Give it a go if you can find it, most illuminating !
Lin

[rhydra]

To add to the energy ideas, I would say that you are not stealing or taking any energy but you are being given energy. When someone dies they lose the constraints and limitations of the human brain and are able to use the higher levels. The energy is being given to you, maybe for some reason, maybe you need it or you may need it in the future. No one can tell what lies in the future in this life or the next. Don't get rid of any energy, it is probably a gift and has been given to you for an important reason.

[aee02]

I can relate and actually wanted to post my experience. I had a bit of a different experience about sensing death. It's happened three times to me. I noticed a sort of golden glow around people who are dying. The last time I saw it was last january with my father. It freaked me out...He had a short illness and passed away on feb 20, 2008. It was not expected. I told my stepmother he was dying and she didn't believe me. The first time I saw the death glow was 11 years ago just before my boss passed away and the other time was an electrician that was doing some work at my house and I saw his obituary about 6 weeks later.
The other point that you made about feeling energy when someone passes away I can totally relate with. When my father passed away last february, I was there with him, rubbing his feet. I felt like I needed to for some reason. When he died I held his hand and after a few minutes I walked to the other side of his bed and stood by him. I felt a cool sort of ethereal breeze and a subtle tap on my right shoulder. I told my sister, who was standing right next to me, of the experience later and she felt the cool breeze as well. I looked it up on the internet and every religion talks about it. Either it's chi, the holy spirit, energy, the soul, etc. Even the navajo indians talk about the cool breeze at death. Another site talked about energy leaving your crown chakra at death. You're not sucking energy from them. It's a very holy experience to go through watching someone die. I think it opens up your own energy centers when you are feeling grief and other emotions. Hope this helps.


Queenmaeve:

Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. First, I am very sorry for the loss of your father.

A glow. How interesting. Is that the only time you see a glow? And did you experience any other senses? I went from taste to smell. When I sense "death" it comes only in the form of taste but other times I have sensed things by smell. The only time that I was able to "see" was the experience with my Partner's father and immediately afterwards and then it went away.

That is very interesting about the "cool breeze". That was very intuitive for you to pick up on it.

I am most interested that you had mentioned that you just instinctively started to rub his feet. I did the same thing. There were four of us there when my Partner's father passed. It was like a ritual almost in which we were all encouraging him to move on.. At first I thought it was grief but it seemed so natural to do what we were doing.. I wonder if the life force begins to leave at the feet-I really do not know about this sort of thing. I just recall one of my friends who had a NDE when her blood pressure dropped. She said it happened twice and that each time it would start with her feet getting cold and then move up her body. Again, at the time I thought it was just something physical but I am beginning to think it is more..

I can't thank you enough for sharing about what you have experienced. I know for me it is hard to speak about and very hard to share so really thank you for doing so. If I learn of anything I'll be sure to let you know about it too. :)

[aee02]

AeeO2 and queen maeve,
after reading both posts and realising the similarities which are obvious, I recollected a book I was drawn to last year whilst living through a similar experience.
It was peculiar to even stumble upon this book where I found it and only made sense once I'd read it.
It is entitled " What If God Were The Sun ? " a novel by a psychic medium called John Edward.
Give it a go if you can find it, most illuminating !
Lin

Hi Academylin,

Thank you for the book suggestion. John Edward was big over here in the states a few years ago. He used to have his own show, "Crossing Over". I didn't get the chance to watch too many shows because it was on when I worked but it was very interesting. Thank you again. :)

[aee02]

To add to the energy ideas, I would say that you are not stealing or taking any energy but you are being given energy. When someone dies they lose the constraints and limitations of the human brain and are able to use the higher levels. The energy is being given to you, maybe for some reason, maybe you need it or you may need it in the future. No one can tell what lies in the future in this life or the next. Don't get rid of any energy, it is probably a gift and has been given to you for an important reason.

Hello Rhydra,

Thank you for letting me know I am not robbing energy. I felt so guilty because, well, it felt kind of nice. I have depression and I get really drained when I am around a large group of people for a long time. I do not know much about energy but I feel at times like a target for those who want to take it. I think the energy I received was good timing.

After reading your post it makes sense that it may have been a gift. My Partner's Dad was very protective of us and at the time I was looking for answers you might say in the wrong places. When he had his accident was when I first noticed these "pyschic" experiences but before that I was drawn to some dark places. I think the energy he gave may have protected me at the time.

You have given me a lot to think about-thank you. There is so much about this energy stuff that I do not know.. Thanks again. :)

[queenmaeve]

Queenmaeve:

Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. First, I am very sorry for the loss of your father.

A glow. How interesting. Is that the only time you see a glow? And did you experience any other senses? I went from taste to smell. When I sense "death" it comes only in the form of taste but other times I have sensed things by smell. The only time that I was able to "see" was the experience with my Partner's father and immediately afterwards and then it went away.

That is very interesting about the "cool breeze". That was very intuitive for you to pick up on it.

I am most interested that you had mentioned that you just instinctively started to rub his feet. I did the same thing. There were four of us there when my Partner's father passed. It was like a ritual almost in which we were all encouraging him to move on.. At first I thought it was grief but it seemed so natural to do what we were doing.. I wonder if the life force begins to leave at the feet-I really do not know about this sort of thing. I just recall one of my friends who had a NDE when her blood pressure dropped. She said it happened twice and that each time it would start with her feet getting cold and then move up her body. Again, at the time I thought it was just something physical but I am beginning to think it is more..

I can't thank you enough for sharing about what you have experienced. I know for me it is hard to speak about and very hard to share so really thank you for doing so. If I learn of anything I'll be sure to let you know about it too. :)Most people don't understand death and have never experienced seeing someone die. It's a very holy experience and when you mentioned the rubbing of the feet I could totally relate. It WAS an instinct, it was necessary.
When you mention the life force leaving the body...I think It starts from the feet and leaves through the head.

I never mentioned that a good friend of mine lost her father in 2001. She was there when he died and I mentioned to her after my father passed, I felt a cool breeze. She concurred and said she felt the same thing.

I never answered the first part of your question. It's not the first time I've seen the glow and when it comes to smell...yes, but it's a horrible smell of sickness. It kind of smells like stale cigarettes.
I'm sorry for your loss and your partner's loss.

[aee02]

Wow sounds like an experience :p I'm sorry to hear what happened to you. It only gets better from now on.

My family used to be a devout Catholics, but then my parents got divorced. When they got divorced they were told, by the church, they had to pay the church money for getting divorced (wtf?). After that my father left the catholic church went from church to church trying to find something that worked for him and me. We couldn't find anything. Every church seemed to just be a sham, as you said. People at all of these churches were so caught up in selfishness and bullshit that they didn't even grow spiritually. At this church we stayed at for a year, would just talk about his own family the whole time, sing some hymns and that was a service on Sunday. We looked for a couple of years. After that my dad read some books, we found David Icke and we both realized that there are better ways to find spirituality then going to church every Sunday. It was hard not going to church because for so many years we thought that was the only way to be spiritual and go to heaven.

I don't know if that helped you at all, but I just wanted to tell you an example that even though things are tough, it will get better. Just keep a positive attitude and you'll be fine. :)

Hey Stinky Catz,

I'm sorry you and your family had such a crappy experience yourself. I can understand how hard it was not going to Church on Sundays. Its like an identity crisis. Speaking for myself, I had defined myself by my job and also by attending the same church for so many years. Routines are so comfortable and yet deceiving. It feels so safe in that little pew... Talk about institutionalized!:eek:

Thank you for the encouragement. I really appreciate the wisdom I have received thus far on this forum. Peace.