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aegis
27-05-2007, 03:35 AM
Greetings everyone, as you can gather from the title, I have some problems I need help with...

I Warn you that this is pretty long, and definately not the whole of it:

A week ago, I decided I wanted to research old civilizations, and I had started seeing them as all quite similar...
This led me to a book called the 12th. planet, which confirmed something I was already suspecting, that we were created by those who descended from the skies, at least thats how the oldst known sumerian artifacts say it...

This has led me into an insane spiral...
As a child, I was known to draw pictures of the greys ever since kindergarten... I have memories of beings, but I always equated it to a child's imagination, as I say, if you watch and talk to a child for long enough, it almost seems as if they're high on drugs with some of the things they say...
Well I needed to figure everything out, which led me to children of the matrix, which I am at the end of now, and what brought me to this forum in hopes of help...

I have one of my first memories being, a tall skinny doctor, an exact picture i cant see in my head... I remember being given a yellow baloon, laid on a table, and then this doctor stuck a needle deep into the heel of my foot, and i remember it hurt quite a lot... (my mother says this never happened and she refused to give me any innoculations all my life)
My next memory is standing alone in the living room, looking out at a dark blue clouded sky at either first sunrse or end of sunset...

After this we moved to another province, BC(Canada) where I remember being in bed as a child, I had woken up and saw a red square in my wall which then turned black and inside i could see a few taller, black shadowed figures, and infront of them, in a line of about 12x4 standing infront of these figures, only they diddnt look like the "greys" ,they were much smaller, diddnt seem to have arms, and almost looked like those little robots from the ninja turtles cartoons that were a chomping mouth with legs basically... I grabbed a plastc sword beside my bed, yelled I have the power (as I was a He-Man freak as a kid) and ran past them, sword pointed at them, out the door and into my mom's room, I find it odd that the beings diddnt do anything, they just stood there as the little grey ones bobbled almost a bit in their lineup...
from here we move again, and in this house, a friend of the family (susposedly) gave me a deck of tarot cards... they are called the "Tarot of the GOLDEN DAWN", I have seen a refrence to the golden dawn being linked to the illuminati, and felt an instant chill...

At this house I have seen somesort of tall being hiding almost, against a tree, my friend saw this as well he claimed... I had also remembered from this time period, trying to run from two, short, grey monsters, I only glanced at them, but I ran upstairs, and in the process of running through the kitchen, heading towards my moms room, everything... slowed down... i could almost hear laughter from them then... I remember i tried best I could to run but just fell face down shortly....

Here is why I am freaked right now as, the house we moved to after this,and the guy who gave me this golden dawn tarot, was staying there as well then, I VIVIDLY remember getting up in my room, wondering why I could smell matches...
as i got up I felt extremely slow in the head,like i had been up really late and awoken after only an hours sleep, i opened my room door and took an immediate left to try and go check on my little sister, as i thought something might have been wrong, as i tried to turn her door knob, everything got slow again, but i couldnt open her door.. my mom's door being 2 feet from her's, I tried for that next, but couldn't open it...
Something then almost told me I should go back to sleep, but right then i remember, it smells like matches... what if there is a fire? and i turned around and started to stumble from the hallway into where it met the living room... Here it is a blurr, my senses only remember smelling matches, a tall black blurr, another tall rey blurr and possibly 1-2 more behiend him, all in my living room, and a voice saying in no tone which I can remember "turn around, go back into your room and go to bed...
So I did just that... While laying there i remembered seeing an almost smoky haze before the window.. outside all i saw was grey overcast clouds, so I know this was in the early morning hours and not night...

Since then, nothing much happened, I know i would go camp out in my tent alone on the odd night though, which I can't help wondering why I'd want to do that in retrospect...

Recently, my sister and I saw a ufo, it seemed to change colors based around a bright white, it was a sphere shape.. I got about 3 minutes of it on my digital camera video mode, which I'd be happy to share if anyone wants to see...
Shortly after I recorded this, I was downtown, and a fair skinned asian girl wearing black glasses, leather pants and a tight black shirt, approached me when I was sitting on a bus, a crowded one I might add, and she said "Hi... I've seen you around, and I have something I'm sure will interest you" I just said OK, and she handed me a business card that said something along the lines of "worship of the light bringer" near a symbol, I remembered i diddn't recognize it at the time... from what I remember, it was something very similar to that of that freemason crest they use...

All these things, are getting to me..
I happen to be 6'4, my sister 6'0, I have light brown hair with blondish natural streaks, a blonde and brown beard, she is brunette, we both are fair skined and have blue eyes...
my uncle paid for our geneology a couple of years ago and said to me "looks like we come from Vikings, you couldn't draw a straighter line from "leif erickson" to us"
I diddn't know who Leif Erickson was, I now do and well...

I believe I must be of this bloodline, I believe they have been after me for years..

Only reasons I can say i'm not dead or a clone right now is, my mother has always been "new age" and perhaps enlightened, always moved us to another house after enough stories... and I myself couldn't want to fight these things more.
Ever since I was old enough to think I could fight them,that has always been my attitude, which I think is all that saved me from the dissection scenarios...

As I grew older, I stopped thinking about them with such beleif... until now...
And now I am in a constant state of anxiety, my sword has been laying next to me ever since I found out we are born of alien DNA...
Now I hear of the Illuminati...
I went to our local freemasonary building lastnight... there I saw their gift shop called "The Sheep's Wool" above the store sign you see a cest of what looks like a large Bee... I see then their catering company, called "Ambrosia Catering" with a giant rose as its symbol which sits atop the free mason symbol.
It all looks true, the Illuminati seem to be not hidden, but proven to me...

I Can't sleep anymore... I can't help but think that "they" know that I know, and they know I will fight...
They always come when you sleep... and thats where I can't fight them now that I learn they are indeed of flesh.

I'm just asking anyone out there who knows anything about this... help me???

Is it true that I am indeed a "son of Thor"? Was he truely evil?

Is there any way warding them off?

Is there any way other than taking drugs that I can sleep?

I don't know how to think or feel anymore... what I do know is, I am anxious to all hell, I havn't slept in over 28 hours, I am not afraid to fight, just afraid to be taken when I cannot...

Can anyone out there shed any light on anything for me???

I would be eternally grateful...

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this....

Heres hoping...

tinmenace
27-05-2007, 03:54 AM
Welcome. :)

Don't be afraid. I wish I could just share with you what I feel and believe through some sort of osmosis, but you're going to have to navigate your path by yourself. Along the way you will find little beacons of light and love that will guide you, so don't be afraid.

Yes, it's a helluva shock, right? It's like a veil being lifted and now you see it all! But, you've woken up and you have to learn everything all over again. This can be terrifying, but the worst is over. You're on your way to TRUE FREEDOM, and it starts with walking away from the prison of fear. They cannot take your soul because you know that reality is NOT what it seems. Congratulations.

Your consciousness is the thing that will help you to soar. No matter what happens, you are now conscious and there is never any going back. Now they are afraid of YOU! So, take back your power, flick them a firm bird and get some sleep. You will be fine. I absolutely promise it.

Sending you massive waves of love and good vibes.
Tin :)

PS, Take care of the vessel in which your consciousness resides (your body). Don't poison or corrupt your DNA with harsh chemicals like Aspartame, Fluoride and MSG. You are going to need perfect clarity going forward.

tinmenace
27-05-2007, 03:58 AM
There are a lot of changes going on with the planet and universe, and EVERYONE is experiencing serious symptoms. Those hopelessly attached to the illusion are experiencing severe fear, aggression and so on. You're not alone, but you have to move quickly to elevate yourself above it...

Read this thread and follow Lapis's links. I think they will bring you some peace

http://www.davidicke.com/forum/showthread.php?t=3883

i am all i am
27-05-2007, 04:48 AM
Greetings everyone, as you can gather from the title, I have some problems I need help with...

G'day Aegis and welcome to the forum.

I Warn you that this is pretty long, and definately not the whole of it:

After this we moved to another province, BC(Canada) where I remember being in bed as a child, I had woken up and saw a red square in my wall which then turned black and inside i could see a few taller, black shadowed figures, and infront of them, in a line of about 12x4 standing infront of these figures, only they diddnt look like the "greys" ,they were much smaller, diddnt seem to have arms, and almost looked like those little robots from the ninja turtles cartoons that were a chomping mouth with legs basically... I grabbed a plastc sword beside my bed, yelled I have the power (as I was a He-Man freak as a kid) and ran past them, sword pointed at them, out the door and into my mom's room, I find it odd that the beings diddnt do anything, they just stood there as the little grey ones bobbled almost a bit in their lineup...

Thsi is because you stated the TRUTH. You do have the power !!!

Who you are is an infinite immortal being. You create with mind/soul/body through thought/word/action. You have the power to be whatever you choose to be. This is free will. They couldn't touch you or do anything to you because you did not give them permission. Instead, you declared the TRUTH, "I have the power !!!".

from here we move again, and in this house, a friend of the family (susposedly) gave me a deck of tarot cards... they are called the "Tarot of the GOLDEN DAWN", I have seen a refrence to the golden dawn being linked to the illuminati, and felt an instant chill...

"The Golden Dawn" is something that someone attempted to get me involved with. Merely stay within your power and choose to do otherwise than get involved.

Here is why I am freaked right now as, the house we moved to after this,and the guy who gave me this golden dawn tarot, was staying there as well then, I VIVIDLY remember getting up in my room, wondering why I could smell matches...
as i got up I felt extremely slow in the head,like i had been up really late and awoken after only an hours sleep, i opened my room door and took an immediate left to try and go check on my little sister, as i thought something might have been wrong, as i tried to turn her door knob, everything got slow again, but i couldnt open her door.. my mom's door being 2 feet from her's, I tried for that next, but couldn't open it...
Something then almost told me I should go back to sleep, but right then i remember, it smells like matches... what if there is a fire? and i turned around and started to stumble from the hallway into where it met the living room... Here it is a blurr, my senses only remember smelling matches, a tall black blurr, another tall rey blurr and possibly 1-2 more behiend him, all in my living room, and a voice saying in no tone which I can remember "turn around, go back into your room and go to bed...

If this ever happens again, say this, "I am infinite love and I make my own choices. You are refused permission to influence me through either mind, body or soul."

Shortly after I recorded this, I was downtown, and a fair skinned asian girl wearing black glasses, leather pants and a tight black shirt, approached me when I was sitting on a bus, a crowded one I might add, and she said "Hi... I've seen you around, and I have something I'm sure will interest you" I just said OK, and she handed me a business card that said something along the lines of "worship of the light bringer" near a symbol, I remembered i diddn't recognize it at the time... from what I remember, it was something very similar to that of that freemason crest they use...

If you have anyone else approach you and give you something in this manner, merely give it back to them or do not accept it.

I Can't sleep anymore... I can't help but think that "they" know that I know, and they know I will fight...

Remeber, what you give out you get back. If you fight them, you become them. Merely state what I have said above and they have no power over you. If they attempt to attack you physically, then believe in yourself and defend your body from harm.

They always come when you sleep... and thats where I can't fight them now that I learn they are indeed of flesh.

I'm just asking anyone out there who knows anything about this... help me???

Is it true that I am indeed a "son of Thor"? Was he truely evil?

Is there any way warding them off?

Yes, what I have stated above and staying centred will also aid you.

Is there any way other than taking drugs that I can sleep?

Yes, meditation, chi breathing, chi gung. There are many ways that you can centre yourself to aid you in this.

I don't know how to think or feel anymore... what I do know is, I am anxious to all hell, I havn't slept in over 28 hours, I am not afraid to fight, just afraid to be taken when I cannot...

Can anyone out there shed any light on anything for me???

I would be eternally grateful...

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this....

You are welcome. If there is anything else that you would like to discuss PM me.

Heres hoping...

I BELIEVE

http://www.feebleminds-gifs.com/silverhawk.gif


YOU HAVE THE POWER TO BE,
WHO YOU CHOOSE TO BE,
YOUR VISION YOU WILL ACHIEVE,
IN YOU I BELIEVE.


http://www.feebleminds-gifs.com/silverhawk.gif


FROM INSIDE COMES CLARITY,
YOURSELF YOU CAN SEE,
I KNOW YOU'RE NOT NAIVE,
IN YOU I BELIEVE.


http://www.feebleminds-gifs.com/silverhawk.gif


IT'S YOUR LOVE YOU DEMONSTRATE,
WHEN YOURSELF YOU CREATE,
YOUR DESTINY TO ACHIEVE,
IN YOU I BELIEVE.


http://www.feebleminds-gifs.com/love.gif



http://www.lifeshore.com/smiley/data/media/3/3D_emoticon_S34.gif With LOVE. http://www.lifeshore.com/smiley/data/media/3/3D_emoticon_S36.gif

aegis
27-05-2007, 04:50 AM
Tinmenace:

Thank you for your help, just knowing that theres others out there to go to helps alot...


I am posting this just because, mabye it's paranoia getting to me, but when I went to http://www.whatsuponplanetearth.com/ACBook.htm and clicked on the link "Ascension Companion" I started to sense a fimilarity from it...

"Each of the 33 topics or messages, contains an explanation of what and why this experience is occurring" (Arent Illuminati obsessed with 33?)

"It is my greatest desire that this book serves to bring you comfort and security during your ascension process, and serves as a reminder that there is order and security at every turn of our evolutionary process. As a loving companion, here to serve and support you, may The Ascension Companion be your good friend in times to come"

(serves as a reminder that there is order and security at every turn of our evolutionary process??? Thats not the Alien DNA theory I heard about... Plus, a companion??? are these so called companions not the very things that are aparrently killing us?)

tinmenace
27-05-2007, 05:10 AM
You're welcome. Here's the thing...I think you're jumping ahead of yourself and I think you're having an information overload, and you've totally exhausted yourself.

Symbolism and numerology is powerful (and sacred), yes, but you must know that it is NOT necessarily sinister. It is the user of these symbols and numbers that give them their intent. A person with malevolent intent will use these things to achieve selfish and sinister goals. But, they have no power to permanently alter the meaning of any number or symbol. It's all up to the the person performing the craft. Just like the Nazi's corrupted the Swastika, which was not a malevolent sign to begin with.

We take back our power, we make it what we want. The links on the Ascension thread are there just for guidance (little lights along your path, illuminating the way). Take that which feels right to you, and leave the rest behind. Follow your intuition. If it feels right, keep it. If it doesn't resonate with you, don't bother with it...it's not meant for you.

Just listen to your higher self...follow your intuitive nudgings and you will be perfectly ok. I promise you that!

aegis
27-05-2007, 05:55 AM
Thanks again Tinmanace,

You're right, I am on total overload...
Just having yourself and I am all i am reply to me at all has already lifted off alot of the stress that was hanging around me.

I have never told anyone about all of these things I have lived through before, so I think that has been a help as well...

I was always told as a child that whenever I was in trouble to ask my "higher self" and the universe to protect me and I will be ok, and whenever I needed to use any forces to protect myself, it has always been in what I am at least thinking is a lucid dream... However, instead of asking for protection or release, I would always just have no fear, and through that I could make anything I wanted happen, and as they were not precieved to me as "life" but as just evil beings, I would always end up killing most, if not all of them, in every scenario... and mostly with white almost energy blasts from my hands and punching, and I know I wouldn't want to do this to anything human, but I did almost enjoy obliterating those evil things, infact, I did enjoy it... is this wrong to enjoy obliterating an invading evil?

Is asking for help through a higher self and for the forces of the universe the same as the oneness???

Is it wrong to try and fight them away from our loved ones? If not, how can we fight them, or at least aid those who are still oblivious?

(Sorry for all the questions, thank you again!)

i am all i am
27-05-2007, 06:08 AM
Are you sure you aren't merely enjoying the fact that you are showing a love of self by protecting yourself ???

In a sense it is the same thing as oneness. You are merely asking for a part of yourself to be made manifest.

Protecting another is an act of love, there is only benefit for others and yourself that can come from love.



http://www.lifeshore.com/smiley/data/media/3/3D_emoticon_S34.gif With LOVE. http://www.lifeshore.com/smiley/data/media/3/3D_emoticon_S36.gif

tinmenace
27-05-2007, 04:21 PM
Thanks again Tinmanace,

You're welcome again, sweetie:)

You're right, I am on total overload...
Just having yourself and I am all i am reply to me at all has already lifted off alot of the stress that was hanging around me.

We are all here to help each other. Nothing else really matters to me. This is my purpose for being...

I have never told anyone about all of these things I have lived through before, so I think that has been a help as well...

Not everyone is ready to listen or accept...

I was always told as a child that whenever I was in trouble to ask my "higher self" and the universe to protect me and I will be ok,

Who told you to do this? I find that very interesting.


...and whenever I needed to use any forces to protect myself, it has always been in what I am at least thinking is a lucid dream... However, instead of asking for protection or release, I would always just have no fear, and through that I could make anything I wanted happen, and as they were not precieved to me as "life" but as just evil beings, I would always end up killing most, if not all of them, in every scenario... and mostly with white almost energy blasts from my hands and punching, and I know I wouldn't want to do this to anything human, but I did almost enjoy obliterating those evil things, infact, I did enjoy it... is this wrong to enjoy obliterating an invading evil?

I don't think it's wrong. I do it all the time. It's exhausting, but someone has to do it, because the majority of people are slumbering and don't see or understand what's REALLY going on. If we allowed the evil to overrun us without us fighting back in this way, we might as well be bricks. Consciousness raises the vibration of the planet, and soon it will overrun the evil.

Is asking for help through a higher self and for the forces of the universe the same as the oneness???

Yes sweetie, you're tapping into the infinite source that you are a part of.

Is it wrong to try and fight them away from our loved ones? If not, how can we fight them, or at least aid those who are still oblivious?

No way! But be sure to do it with love. In that I mean, don't be hateful when doing it. Be sure that your intent is coming from a place that wants to see your family and loved ones (and the planet and all it's inhabitants) free from evil and bondage. Focus on that instead of enjoying seeing them obliterated. Do you know what I mean?

(Sorry for all the questions, thank you again!)

No problem, you're welcome ;)

.

tru3
30-05-2007, 07:31 AM
and whenever I needed to use any forces to protect myself, it has always been in what I am at least thinking is a lucid dream... However, instead of asking for protection or release, I would always just have no fear, and through that I could make anything I wanted happen, and as they were not precieved to me as "life" but as just evil beings, I would always end up killing most, if not all of them, in every scenario... and mostly with white almost energy blasts from my hands and punching, and I know I wouldn't want to do this to anything human, but I did almost enjoy obliterating those evil things, infact, I did enjoy it... is this wrong to enjoy obliterating an invading evil?

you've given yourself the answer. no fear. focus that knowing, with humility. merge the two, and the way i see it, you cannot be harmed. a rope coiled in twilight can appear to be a snake, until light reveals that experience of perception for what it is: illusion.

spread the light rather than fight the darkness. jmo.

these 'entities' have no real power, they can only ensnare the unaware and the timid among us with our own creative power. they entrain the mind and soul of the unfortunate. we simply break the pattern with a wave of our hand, a steadfast impulse of Will in service of Truth, and see the rope for what it is.

aegis
10-06-2007, 05:30 PM
Thank you again everyone,

And Tinmenace, to answer your question :

"I was always told as a child that whenever I was in trouble to ask my "higher self" and the universe to protect me and I will be ok,

Who told you to do this? I find that very interesting."

It was my mother who would tell me this... What exactly the "higher self" she was referring to, I am not sure of though...