internal pain

[Ian2day]

I had dreasm wishes adn ambitions
then discovered my lifes work was missing
cant get past the pain and hate I feel
for all th emotherfuckers in the industry
even fake ass undeground MC's
spitting my stolen lyrics after siging a secret major label deal
plenty fake rap artists in the industry
pretend to keep it reel while the audience is seen
lost count of the amount of lyrics I lost
must be about close to 10 to the power of 400 bob
expressed my rage and frustration
the only escape I have is to run
but where does a broken man go
when he has burnt all those bridges from long ago
I try to reconfigure my thoughts
I keep getting stuck on about the past
Isolated and alone I scan the scorched ground
looking for where there was once a path
away from the Reptillians lair
Where would you go to meet other's of note
Perhaps I could overcome this cursed verse
I spat as a child out to the universe
Icke says that the truth shall set you free
My truth is a prison of mental torture it seems
unable to overcome the lies and deceit
For misery flows in my veins
which makes my heart weep
out for the love I lost
My being consumed with rejection
unable to handle the truth
or to distinguish liars and cheats
perhaps it is I that needs a reboot
clear my cache of all the temp files
find my purpose and do my best
for surely no more suffering I can express

[talkingchimp]

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[Ian2day]

check this out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yoN6XfyQsr4

I'm aware of the dynamic duo. That's from I think 1995-6.

[lilavati]

hi ian.
yes im not into rap but im hearing what you have to say
it echos the words of a music industry person i met who explained that young people who know the truth and are speaking the truth are taken over by the record companies given a pay off and they produce some nonsense and then they loose their credibility.
he said hes seen it happen so many times.
so rap now isnt what it started out as,ie. a voice its just another form of manipulation.
anyway keep going ian there are people that will listen

[Ian2day]

I don't just write rap. I write many other genre's. A lot of what I have written given the choice. I would never of had made let alone released. A lot of the lyrics are horrendous and contain insulting and derogatory statements language and attacks on individuals and groups. It was my private therapy about my life. It was me getting all the negativity inside of me out of me.

When I look at what was stolen and put out to the world I am not surprised at how messed up it is. A lot of the lyrics are beautiful and wonderful. Some are funny, some are sad and some are just offensive, obnoxious and insulting. I lost control when writing some of the material and I lost editorial control on what happened to it afterwards.

[lilavati]

ian, with regards to your internal pain[which we all get]
please visit www.purebhakti.com
tell me what is your opinion;)